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I'm Special...............by Debby M WHAT GOES UP…….MUST COME DOWN………AND MOVE ALL AROUND I wake up every morning grateful for what I have. I’m happier now in my new life than I have been in years. I feel I’m a positive person. Always looking at the glass half full. I’ve always felt I was dealt a hand from a deck of cards. It is up to me how I deal with the hand dealt. Yes, I’ve had challenges in life to deal with and it always surprises me that I came out OK! I made it, after being pushed and pulled in all different kinds of directions. In life there are no directions. Just go with the flow. I have tried to make the best possible choices by listening to my heart and soul. I have always felt that I have experienced more than some, but less than others. For this I am grateful that I am surviving my lessons in life. I’m grateful I’ve arrived. I was without work. I was grateful each day that I didn’t have to worry about where my next rent check was coming from. Sure, its borrowed money, but I’m the lender. I used money I saved for taxes to pay for my living costs. I live in a beautiful place……I call it “The Resort”. My loft bedroom overlooks a swimming pool. The grounds are always manicured. Sometimes I felt like I will not make it. I know its not so, as I won’t let that happen. For me, I’m in a place where I’ve never been before. I find it soothing, to say the least. As for the first time in years, I have no real responsibility except for myself. I’ve always been the caregiver. I’m learning how to take care of “me”. What a concept. I know who I am, but I have given myself the opportunity to make myself whole. Continually growing and looking inside of me to learn more about myself. This is “my” time. I’ve earned it. Deserve it. Love it. It has allowed me to truly deal with my pain. I know in my heart I tried the best that I was capable of to have a relationship with my ex-husband and my mother. I truly wanted a loving relationship. Some things are not meant to be. I’m OK with that. There are other people that will love me for who I am and try not to control me. Respect me and accept me with all of my faults and all of what I have to give. That being love. In my circle of life I want to be around people who have the integrity to be true to themselves, and who are loving, caring and trusting individuals. These are such important qualities. I try each day to be the best that I can to myself and to others. There are evil people in this world. Evil can be classified in many ways. The evil I speak about is personal evil. By this I mean honesty. To be honest with people, but, more importantly, be honest with themselves as well. For if people are true to themselves, they will be true to others. I believe this is where evil begins. Not taking responsibility for ones mistakes, that being verbally or physically abusive. Not taking the initiative, especially when an individual is aware of it, doesn’t change it……..deal with it…….try to be a better person. “CHANGE”! This is what is evil. Not changing for the better. Let's face it, it is harder to change than to stay the same. The comfort zone in not changing, the familiarity is something we all know. Changing that familiarity to the unknown is frightening, yet to evolve into our true selves is what the journey is about. I believe, in all my heart, I did try to change to save those dear to me. They might think otherwise. Their actions speak loudly. The things they say……they do……they don’t do. Contemplating all the emotions is draining. I call it purging. We all need to purge. That’s where the down comes. It’s like breathing for the very first time. Now it’s time to take in all the good. The cycle never really ends. Its like the saying “one door closes……another opens”. For each new door that opens, we can only have faith in ourselves. Each new journey will be exciting and alive to embrace the moments. To gather good thoughts and along the way meet even more loving and caring people on this journey of life. I say to myself. Never again will I subject myself to letting anyone belittle me, disrespect me, control me or make me ever feel again that I am not worthy. BECAUSE “I’m Special”……….we’re all Special!! [ add comment ] | permalink I'm so excited. As most of you know, I LOVE Halloween. So when I received a card from the International Lingerie Show "introducing" the Adult Halloween Show..........you can just imagine how excited I became. The count down is on and I'm patiently waiting for this trip. I'll keep you posted of all and any news. Love, Debby [ add comment ] | permalink "Clarity". My favorite word. I have always felt, in my life anyway, that having clarity is one of the most important themes to life. It has been brought to my attention that I have not included the other female artists who will be sharing the spotlight on this web. Since I am in the early stages of formalizing other women artists, I have not included these mentions. I have been talking with a few women who are interested in displaying their creativity. I can assure you that my desire to feature other women artists is very important. When the time is appropriate, I will display their talents/creativity. My mission is to promote women, and in doing so, create an avenue for women to empower themselves. I am not an artistic woman and I appreciate women who are gifted and talented. I appreciate beauty and want to pass this along. As time goes on, I can assure you that this world of women's talents will be showcased. Thank you all for your love and support. Debby [ add comment ] | permalink Well this is truly exciting for me. I completed my lingerie questionnaire and sent it out to all the lovely ladies I know. Thank you Brenda, Suzie, Zia Louise, Jen, Erin and, of course, Sadie. If you are reading this and you would like my questionnaire, please email me. The purpose of the lingerie questionnaire is twofold 1) to find out what sizes I need to focus on in my hunt @ The International Lingerie Show in Las Vegas and 2) to assist those of you who need help in locating certain items you normally cannot find. While this is a new adventure for me, I have wanted to do this for a few years now. In addition, when I do receive the lovelies I purchase in Las Vegas, I will host "at-home" parties to introduce my concept of "beautiful women" and how important it is to wear the appropriate lingerie to feature our true beauty. If anyone has any suggestions, please feel free to contact me. Suggestions are always welcomed. Thank you in advance for completing the questionnaire. I truly appreciate your time and effort. Much love, Debby [ add comment ] | permalink Saturday, April 14, Brenda and I will be arriving in Las Vegas for the International Lingerie Show. We are both very excited about this jaunt to the city "what happens in Vegas........stays in Vegas". I'm sure the show will be overwhelming with so many vendors to choose from. On that note, I am compiling a questionnaire to see what those of you need and want. What types of things do you have a difficult time finding for yourself. Please think of me as your personal shopper. Also, we can't forget about our dates with "Bob".......our friendly "battery operated boyfriend". I'm sure Brenda and I will have quite a laugh and venture looking for the best "boyfriend". If you have any suggestions, please let me know. My gratitude and appreciation for all your support. Love, Debby [ 2 comments ] ( 788 views ) | permalink Back Next |
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